music is back to me by the marias sooooo yeah read the title, since you aren’t going to read my whole yap sesh anyways. i’m free!! i thought this day wouldn’t come until i graduated but apparently all it takes to break an addiction is… a hobby?? woah this is crazy anyways so yeah basically i’ve always struggled with comparing myself to others and feeling like i’m doing enough, and it’s gotten particularly bad lately. like my self esteem is pretty mediocre atm and scr isn’t really helping that. in addition, i’ve been on this website since i was eight, so basically my entire conscious (slash post covid) life has involved this stupid website somehow. i got into kpop (which i don’t like anymore but whatever), beabadoobee, singing (other than choir), aesthetics and just generally valuing visual appeal, and sm more because of scr. its had SUCH a big impact on my life, and i’d be a completely different person without it. (seriously, a huge part of my personality is stolen from ygs.) that being said, i don’t know who i am without this site, and i feel like it’s important for me to get to know her. i can’t forget that i’m literally 110% not allowed on here. sneaking on felt better when i could use ibispaint, but now i’m just adding extra to my already inflated time on pin and i don’t think i can keep it up for much longer, especially if i get a new ipad where i can’t use the hack. my life and hobbies have always aligned with where i was on scr, but i’ve stayed separately interested in reading and writing, and i’d like to say that i’ve slowly improved over the years. i think moving on from scr to let myself do some proper writing could end in a reason to come back, to share my writing with this community i really, truly, love with my whole heart. spop is a place that’s never failed to be kind, genuine, and to accept and forgive me. i don’t think i’ll forget any of you soon. but in any case, this emotional speech is probably redundant. i’ll be active on bl to share covers + chat from time to time, and i’ll also have an acc on scr where i’ll post my writing when i finally lock in and do something good. so i’m not really leaving, i’m just leaving the spop part of spop, the part you tell people about when they ask what you are. yes, i’m leaving all my groups. no, i won’t do any more lines. TRUST ME i want to stay in some of them, but i want to commit to releasing myself from the insane stress being in spop sometimes gives me. woah i just realized this sounds a lot like this https://scratch.mit.edu/projects/1191277275 lmao. thanks for giving 11 year old me a purpose in life again, but 13 year old me has a different one. the huzz, duh /silly. (sorry) anyways the mandatory friend notes! if i forgot u i apologize i’m severely jet lagged rn ena (idk if youll read this ngl) — i actually love u sm u mean so so so much to me and i’m still not over your leaving, in case u were wondering. i had a good feeling abt u the second u joined, and every single day since you proved me right over and over again. your commitment to making everything you do 10 times better than everyone expects is so impressive, just like your commitment to being an amazing friend. imy, ily, <3 ocean/lyra/pearl/idek — crazy that a year ago this second there’s a pretty good chance we were yapping on a canva doc. talking to you has never been anything but so so so much fun, the memories, the trash talking, the yapping, is insane. i’m gonna miss u so so much, and i’ll probably be getting war flashbacks from the more sugar font for the rest of my life </3 mai — idk what i’m saying this isn’t goodbye, we’ll probably still text but i can’t just forget u lma. you’re so nice and so funny and tbh i look up to u a bit cs you’re so unc…… i’m sorry i’ll never get to release no doubt, i’ll put it on bl i swear. but i’ll miss u so so so much and ily! koh — putting u after mai cs yk… history gc…… but yeah koh you’re so cool and also so unc but that’s a whole other problem. i remember when i first saw yr acc i was genuinely just like “woah holy aura this person is the spop comm host” and uh yeah. you’re so talented and fun to talk to but again, this isn’t a total goodbye, is it? still, i’ll miss u sm <3 yooni — you probably won’t see this but i’m writing it anyways. you’re so nice, so talented, and you’re such an icon of 2025 spop and i feel so lucky that i got to be your friend. i hope you’ll be back soon, and i hope you know i’m still not over how peak dolle ent was. ily! jiyeon — again idk if you’ll even see this but i’m still writing it!! i hope you know our first interaction was in 2024 when you told advertisers to stop interacting on my old ia spop prf and i thanked you, so we basically go way back. i already said a lot in my note to you when you left, but i just want to say again that your impact will NOT be forgotten any time soon. imysm and i’ll miss u even more when we’re both gone. (cont. below)
minji/emma/lwky forgot ur new name i’m sorry — GOSH ILYSM. back when i was a huge stay it meant so much to me to have a friend who was even more obsessed with han jisung as i was (although id prefer to not talk about that era now). your friendship has meant so much to me, you’re so kind and sweet, and also talented as frickk!! i absolutely KNOW you’re going places and please remember me when you’re famous, that’d be really cool. ilysm!! thea — i’ve looked up to you basically since i joined, you’re so freaking cool and nice and i remember how excited i was when you said we were friends. i admire you so much and i feel so lucky that i got to meet and talk to you, and i got to convert my sister into a lychee too. i really hope you get famous/known someday, you deserve it so so much and i’ll miss getting to talk to you sm. ine/yunha/igenuinelydontknowimsorry — we’ve become friends a bit more recently, but i’ve still enjoyed talking to you so so so much (esp during that phase where there’d be a lot of times when we were the only ones on, was i the only one who noticed that?). also you like lyn lapid so basically we should get married /silly and also you remembered my haircut because you’re so sweet!! #joblessjulia!!!!!!! (can u tell when i wrote this lmao) rubie — AHH RUBIEE <33 i miss talking to you so so much you’re one of the sweetest people i’ve ever met and genuinely one of the most talented people i’ve ever heard, please don’t stop singing and try to get yourself out there (ofc only if that’s what you want) because i truly believe you can make it. you’re so kind and helpful, and seeing you succeed off scr has made me unbelievably happy for you. i’m gonna miss u so bad and ilysm ml <33 irene — #stars4irene!! i’ve always admired you sm (when i first joined, i basically wanted to be you lma). but talking to you is always so much fun, i feel like we have a decent ish amount in common idk (?) and it’s been awesome getting to know you better more recently. if you told sunhee she’d end up friends with yura, i can GUARANTEE she wouldn’t believe you. i’ll miss u sm!! anyways there’s probably so so many more people i want to say goodbye to, but tbh i’m absolutely exhausted rn and i’m also terrified that some people don’t consider me a friend </3 but to all the people i’ve EVER talked to on here — you’re amazing, so nice, so welcoming, and i’m so lucky to have known you. every interaction, no matter how small, has mattered to me. i love you all so much, and it really does hurt me to leave. i’ll never forget ygs. again, i’ll still be on scr. you’ll be able to find me at @so6ngbird, where i’ll be kinda ia but checking in maybe once a week and posting writing + maybe (but i highly doubt it) the occasional cover. you can ask for my bl/pin, but i won’t be putting them in the desc to avoid getting reported. again, thank you all so so so much for being the kind, welcoming, supportive community you are. spop/scr have shaped my life, and i’ll always be grateful. thank you. - kai (@socoolsuper, @kviw, @ickuyo, @therealsunhee, @myoelle, @kisekidoll, @xx_labs, @kaisekidoll, @dazemi, and now, @so6ngbird)
