Hello. There's literally no point in an introduction; nobody will see this because I am lost media, but im posting it anyway because i need to vent and im still legally a minor; therefore it is socially acceptable for me to vent online, guys ok??? OKAY!!!!!!!! hgguo okay this wont make sense guys (i say to the invisible camera) but it matters to me its 11:26 At Night, I have 30 minutesish before i officially turn into an adult and im genuinely like tweaking out?? well not really but this FEELS like a big deal and yet i feel like im the only one who cares about it?? if that makes sense?? And like it makes SENSE that nobody gaf, people become an adult everyday and they deal with it fine, but idk i kind of wish someone cared..and not in the sense that like "yay you can finally have these big boy perks and big boy responsibilities" but like caring because its like a huge step in life and many things are coming and theres too many and im scared but being an adult means no one will hold your hand so you just have to do it alone. im afraid because this means i have to do everything alone and by yself, and although thats super freeing in its own sense its also very like...isolating in many others. and i think thats what im afraid of..being alone in the end, i pretend that i dont need anybody and im fine being by myself but im not dude im not!!!!! and oughhhhhhhhhuo4444444442884fwfwfefwefwef i so desperately wanna go back to when it was good, i wanna go back to when i yearned for "adulthood" without realizing what it really was, i miss it back then, it sucked, but at least it didnt feel so scary, i didnt feel so alone. im like clark I LIKE IT IN HERE!!!!!!!! FOR THE VERY FIRST TIME IN A LONG TIME!!! I hope this feeling is temporary, i hope that one day ill be fully grown and happy and ill look back on this and think about how wrong i was or how much good stuff was coming that i, now, wouldnt expect. I really hope so i do. i dont even know why im sharing this...i mean well i do, i want attention, i want someone to hear me and relate to me, and idk..i think i just want someone to "get it" even when I know theres nobody out here on this website that like..would find this anymore uh oh its 11:44 ummm im sure ill be okay tomorrow, i just needed to vent this out. because this has been inside me for a long time, i hope i change one day, at least for the meantime childhood wasnt the best, but it was at the least enjoyable. and i think thats enough isnt it?
