Dear Starfish, I don’t know what to say I don’t know what to do I just know… It hurts And… I miss you I miss that moment Standing in front of your car When I finally told you How much you meant to me I miss the letters Where you told me your favorite things Animals, books, and colors and flowers I already knew them all But I loved to hear them nonetheless I miss the calls late at night Where we planned to bake cookies Or watch a movie together Where we’d talk about God And our plans for the future I miss that day When you invited me to play games When you actually felt like you When you really felt comfortable When it felt like you loved me I know you still do Even though you’ve never said it And… I can’t decide If that makes it hurt less or more I miss your laugh I miss your smile I miss… When you called yourself mine I held on so tightly Because I was terrified to lose you But God has a way Of taking the things we grasp tightest Because when my hands are empty They’re free to cling to Him Because it’s when I’m hurt That I run to Him It’s when I’m thrown into the dark That I really seek His light So… Thank you I think that really We both knew it was right Thank you For being brave enough to do it And God? Thank you For being the only one willing To shatter my heart To reclaim my soul Cause when my life is falling to pieces I bring them back to you When I lay my shards In your hands and at your feet They become yours again I miss her And I love her And it hurts, God It really hurts But I’m learning how much I’ve always needed you You’re teaching me To love you first You’re teaching me To put my hope in you My joy in you Because I can’t find it anywhere else So thank you For ripping my dreams Away from my grasp Because now God I have no choice But to hold onto you I don’t know what to say I don’t know what to do I just know… You’re here And… I need you Please don’t leave me too And please don’t leave her Cause God? She needs you as much as me You’ve crushed our hearts But I know you can heal them I know my soul Is yours again I know it hurts But I know you’re good And I don’t know what to say Except… Thank you
So um... That's how I'm feeling rn "See now that I, I am He, And there is no one besides Me... I have wounded, and it is I who heal." ~ Deuteronomy 32:29 Images from Pixabay, poem all mine
