written :: august 3rd 2026 at 12:35 pm hey <3 maybe you've noticed, probably not, i'm good at pretending things are fine when they're not, but i've been drifting away a lot from scr. i love this site and i spent a lot of my tween and early teen years on here, but i think i've kind of done everything by now you know when you listen to a song so much you get tired of it? it's kind of like that. i think i've made my mark on here the best i could, and there's not really much left for me here, if that makes sense. the way i see it, there are three generations in the aes comm. gen 1, w nara and golden and nia and all of those people, gen 2, w fae and ellie and isla and all of them, and then gen 3, the newest aes scratchers who have jst joined. i'm part of gen 2, and i think we've all come to the same conclusion; it's time for us to pass the torch, in a sense. i've been on scr for many years, and i've tried leaving many, many times, but i think this time it might jst be the real thing. the reason i went back on here after my break was to chat w my friends again, but if they're all leaving now there isn't much point, especially when i can talk to them in other places. fae, ames, clara, ellie, nara, rhea, and so many more of my friends have all left, taking along with them one of my main reasons for ever coming back on scr in the first place. i'm 15, and at this point college is really starting to worry me, and i don't think i can continue to spend my days staring at my screen watching my messages without any problems created by it. my parents are really pressing me to get some 'ambition' and start working harder, and i fear that i won't be able to do that if i'm constantly either on scr or thinking abt it. answering messages and hosting things and making projects and banners has become somewhat of a chore now, and i think that's probably a sign that i'm outgrowing this site. there are a lot more reasons, but frankly i'm worried if i continue writing much more i'm going to change my mind and jst get sucked in again. remember me when you listen to let down by radiohead, when you hear the lyric 'one day i'm gonna grow wings', when you see someone use too much lace on their banners, when someone mentions effy, when the cure plays, when you see mac eyeliner, and when you see someone obsess over kaz brekker ty fae, isla, cari, elle, rhea, elliott, ames, vivi, amoreigh, april, keira, ellie, and clara for being there for me, you guys are the reason scr is still a sort of home to me, and ily all sm!! if you'd like my p2n it's inside the prj <3 please remember me, reyna <3
