So 8 have bad mental health i cry every night and I feeel guilty and I don't deserve anyone not even ma fwends I tell them Abt ma problems and I feel better then I cry maself to slep thinking I'm manipulative and over dramatic and I feel like nothing and I flinch at any thing hard a I have a useless fear of stupid umbrellas and I get overtin shops like m&s and I hate busy stuff and I hate when people criticize and I take jokes too far It becomes an insult and I hate regrets that always haunt mah and I want to cry at the wrong time and I try to hold the darkness in a mental jar and it's too far and I love music but it gets old and I hate it when it gets old cuz I want to move on but I love it though and I don't want to get personal but ma irl fwends know deeper stuff and I fell so sorry for them cuz when ones angrY I'll cry then I feel guilty cuz they'll comfort me instead of da angry one I I hate that cuz I feel like a bad person
