rant—01

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honestly, I’m not depressed guys just fyi ok I’m fine and rlly happy mostly but I have to get this out so this will be hard to explainnnnn hmmmm okayy so I’m 11 at the time of writing this, and I’m in a program for 14+ but the owner of the program made an exception for me :) and she’s great I luv her so muchhhhhh also THIS WAS IN JAPAN and ITS A LANGUAGE LEARNING PROGRAM yeah ok There’s this dude in my Japanese class and he’s 15 so let’s call him 15 erm yep yeah. (Ray William Johnson reference?) And he’s kinda short but yeah he’s also rlly dumb like he’s in the lowest level okay and I’m also in the lowest level but I was thinking abt requesting to be moved up to a higher learning level bc the class was a bit easy and I was the smartest (or second to a guy who never comes to class bc he has a j*b in Japan (lol j*b)) Yeah guys just use ur imaginations heh So I’d be olive bc that’s similar to my irl name (not Olivia I would not want that name no offense) and ig 15 just hates me? So idk how am I supposed to write these rants? okkkkkkkk So EVERY SINGLE TIME I just SAY SOMETHING he says something like “blud is (insert smth random)” and that’s annoying but meh I get irritated a lot I mean I’m an 11 yr old girl how could I not get annoyed at everything right? And sometimes when I say something that he doesn’t agree with or is a bit mean, like “I like…(something I like)” or whatever right… and then he goes “Sooooooooooooo……..olive is dumb” and idrc that he says that bc he’s rlly dumb and i get it ppl get annoyed when there’s someone who is smarter than them that is actually semi-likable and a little nice sometimes (some ppl might not be able to relate but I do see this a lot) but he says it a lot and it’s just SO DAMNNN ANNOYING but that’s just meh right guys But he insults every single thing that I say and he literally acts like I can speak Japanese like whenever the teacher asks me a question, he immediately says it in English and it’s something like “what did you eat for breakfast” or “how old are you” or smth rllyyyyyy easy and it just messes up with my immersion :/ like he gotta chill bc ik what my teacher says. Also once one of my teachers who is also my friend was teaching us about clothing sizes and she said that I would probably need to ask for a small size if I was buying clothes and I laughed bc she said it as a joke like “haha olive you might need the small size” (in Japanese) and I was like that’s so funny lolllll and 15 is like “olive she just said you’d need a small size” and I wanted to crash out like “THATS WHY I LAUGHED” but I was more like “erm this is ur second year here and ur in the first level so shut up like ur dumb and obvs im smarter im 11 and this is my first summer” and he was like “I WASNT HERE FOR 2 YEARS” and I was like “ok 2 summers” and he was like “bluds dumb” and I was like thinking ‘what a thing for you to say lol’ but yeah so I kinda accidentally insulted him in front of the entire class lol but he was kinda bulling me first so :/ and I was was hanging out with a girl, and let’s call her E. e is Japanese and she’s basically a bit younger than me and she’s learning English at the same place I’m learning Japanese and she’s awesome and nice to me so yeah we’re friends and once 15 insulted me while we were hanging out at the school so my thought process was like: lemme insult him in Japanese (bc it’s gonna help me think in Japanese more and it’s just funny to say smth he can’t understand) so e laughed when I told him “shut up” in japanese (at least I didnt insult his hair which was super chopped (but I do know how to insult hair >:D ) yeah and then he started saying mean things and I’m not gonna like state all of them but he was saying things that made me kinda mad like “oh e is so much better than you and she’s cool and awesome” and I don’t mind that bc shes cool but I felt so bad for her bc she was looking at me like ‘are you okay?’ bc she couldn’t understand all of that and I didn’t want her to feel bad so I was like I’m ok but that’s the only thing I want to note that he said and I want to the restroom to check if my eyes were red bc I usually don’t cry but I felt like I was gonna just in case but it turns out that I’m a pretty good actor like I literally somehow didn’t cry and made myself look happy :) my dream job lol and then the next day he’s like “olive are you homesick” and I was like “ye” and he was like “oh well it’s brave that you and ur brother came to japan even tho ur younger than 14” (yes I have (an older) brother) and I was like thinking yeah no shut tf up and I ignored him and now the only time I talk to him is just when he says something insulting and I don’t even talk to him I just stare at him so yeah? but this week I’m moving to the middle level of japanese but I saw a list of ppl who were moving up and 15 was on it and I just wanted to cry and so that’s all guys what should I do????????? :’’’’’’( *sigh* guys don’t be scared abt me I’m fine it ↓