Just to clear things up, I am not quitting Scratch, although the beginning of this may sound like it. So, I've kinda been going through a lot of stuff recently. Some weird and scary stuff is happening with my family, and my self-esteem is getting lower and lower. I was also teased a lot during the school year for being a "weird" kid, and it honestly feels like even when school is over, those people are still saying things about me and laughing at me in my mind. It's been drastically affecting my self-confidence, and I really didn't want to tell anyone, because, I really am a weird kid. I'm aware that isn't necessarily a bad thing. But in my case, it's not a good thing. Sometimes I just can't help walking a certain way or being fixated on a certain "weird" thing, or speaking in a way that annoys someone, and that ends up making me the target of a lot of jokes. I really wish I could be normal. And due to that, sometimes I lose my ambition. My will to try my best. To be there for other people. So what's the point of saying all of this? I want to make it clear I am not a perfect person. I am very very far from perfect. I'd love to say I was brave and persevered through all of this, but I really didn't. I just sat there, took it, and cried a lot at home. Way more than I should've. So my point is, I'm really just not feeling consistent motivation right now. Some days maybe I'll be pretty motivated, but others? I just want to sit there and do nothing. Cut out all social interaction. And obviously this hit-or-miss motivation will affect my activity here on Scratch. To be clear: I am not quitting Scratch. I'm not even taking a break from Scratch. I'll be here just the same. I just want you to know that if I go silent for a long time or stay active for way too long, or send you too many messages, or send 0 messages, you'll know why. I will always eventually come back here. There is a 0% chance of me quitting and not coming back right now. I love all of you guys. All my friends, all my followers, everyone who's nice to me. I've met so many amazing people recently. Any time someone compliments me or a project I made or anything like that, it really does make me feel better and gives me motivation to keep going. Thank you all so much. It really means a lot to me. For the record, nothing is guaranteed right now. Maybe I'll last through the whole time without inactivity. Maybe I'll even become more active. Who knows? I'm not going to predict anything. And finally, for anyone who's going through something similar, just know that every storm has an end. Everything will get better. There are people who care about you. People who love you, even if it isn't outright clear to you. I will still be making projects, the only thing I'm trying to say is maybe they won't be as often, or maybe they'll come out even more often. I dunno. Thank you for reading.
