TW: talk of self-h4rm and de4th!! (And the two put together). Reminder. Even if life feels like crap, it will get get better. I love storms because it shows even nature needs to cry sometimes. Don't be afraid to show how you feel. And hey, if it gets to bad, and su/cide crosses your mind, talk to me. I'd rather stay up all day and night talking to you, than hear that your gone... EDIT/UPDATE: I sent this to my friends just now. *Crys* 10 o'clock, 30.7.2026. "Honestly, over the years, every moment has grown into a pit of regrets and self hate. For example, I miss my friends so much, and I regret not making the most of being with them. Leaving Farfield was the single worst moment of my life. And now, it's been a full year since then. The day it was a year since we left, I stayed up, thinking of my friends and memories, to help honour the moments we had. I know I can't change the past, but if I could, I would go back and make the most of it all, every smile, every laugh, every person. On top of this, I don't feel safe at home, I'm accused of being Depressed, I'm told I'm a disappointment, I'm told other unkind works, yet, I still go on. They hate me for being myself! I have to hide who I am!! Unfortunately, one day, it got so bad, I tried to call childline, but they didn't pick up, so I left it. But now I know how far I would go to get help, and away from this pain. Su/cide crosses the mind many days, but I'm scared to leave my friends and memorys. It's too much." And there is far more I would've put, but it's too complicated to get into words, let alone tell people.
The song is "It's been a long time." By The Living Tombstone. These are some of the best moments and memorys of my life. Those I will love close to my heart. Every leaf, every words said, everything... Enjoy life, you'll only get to live it once! (Do not pay attention to me saying this if u are religious or a therian..) *(0.5 seconds later after re-reading it.)* $H/T! NO, I mean, still enjoy life ofc, but you might believe you live a new life once u die. Sry. Anyway. Stay safe, enjoy yourself. Remember to keep good friends close. Also, my pookie bears, it took me AGES to get the Timing to be good. Cya. -Jay from the sad world, where the cloudy sky will soon clear.
