I have been doing okay this month. I’m taking better care of myself- like, my room has been pretty tidy. And my teeth are better! (embarrassing that it was an issue I know!!) My infatuation with the “””retro””” consoles from the time of my childhood continues—I bought a PS3- IVE NEVER HAD ONE BEFORE LOL. But just all of the vibes feel nostalgic!! (OK my dad said apparently I used to watch him play on it when i was really little ?? that might explain the nostalgia I guess-) In case you couldn’t tell, I love frutiger aero and related aesthetics. Nostalgiacore for the win ALSO, I FINALLY MODDED MY 3DS!!!! OH MY GOD IM SO GLAD I DID IT IT'S SO COOL (I was nervous cause I'm scared of change LOL) Also, I am still gonna make a reboot Roleplay for CHAOS Academy, and I have an introductory project with a bajillion pages of text that I just want to add some pictures to—but I didn’t prioritize that this month because of Artfight. …Speaking of which, uh, I clearly did not get that much done—definitely not as much as I had initially been hoping. Regardless, I'm happy I was part of it! And I got some really cool art :} (I put my favorites in near the end of this project!) - woefulcat's OC Olive! - ScalesTheWaterDragon's OC Astral / Ivy Anderson !! - OrionNotPax's OC Moss! - Shark_zone75's sona with Rexie!!! I was trying to sorta recreate the scene in the attack they sent me, which featured the same OCs :D I UNFORTUNATELY did not manage to actually color/render the piece in time... but I'm thinking I still might finish it and PM the drawing to them! - Random character, I don’t really like how I drew the eyes even though I think they look cool. I just don’t think it feels like my intended style ? - Random werewolf head. I was thinking that the CHAOS Universe werewolves should like, turn into actual anthropomorphic wolves- I think before I just made them dog-eared people that could turn into full canine form T0T I WAS A COWARD. THEY SHOULD ALL TURN INTO WEIRD FURRIES (their normal form will still have canine ears tho I think it’s cute idk) - Sunset Shimmer sketch- I was gonna put a whole rant here but my writing is taking up too much room.... (basically I love MLP EQ and she's my favorite-) (TO BE CRINGE IS TO BE FREE) - “bro….. what ,,” (I just thought this sketch was funny LOL) - random dude ¯\_(ツ)_/¯ - weird Amber sketch (she sometimes dissociates and becomes eerily zombie-like when her powers are fully activated (her more powerful magic is triggered by adrenaline)) - Bad Rexie sketch that I’m still adding because like. At least I drew *something*- - I just think it’s really funny that Amber looks like she’s reaching out to touch Rexie’s hair LMAO (that was not on purpose) Canon event btw she would do that. I mean who wouldn’t ?? Look at how spiky it is, spiky anime hair hehe - drew her on my 3DS- the quality of this picture looks super weird after I put it in Scratch ??? T0T those lines were not there before Now for my favorite Artfight attacks I got this year!! I just wanted to show them off, they’re really neat!! - REXIE !!!!!! This drawing is by OrionNotPax :] I love it so much and I love that they added her heart sunglasses!!! (I didn’t include a ref for them LOL I just mentioned them in her desc) - Rexie w/ Shark_zone75’s sona!!! This is the scene I was trying to recreate in my revenge !! I loved the new outfit they made for her!!! - Flameleap (Warriors OC) drawn by woefulcat!!! I don’t really care for my warriors OCs much anymore, but I’m happy that people have fun drawing them! THE LINEART IS SOO CLEAN!!! (I’m totally not jealous..) Honestly, the style it’s drawn in feels kind of nostalgic! - Slitherfang (Warriors OC) drawn by yans_basement!!! This drawing and the style it was done in is so gorgeous !! TOT I love his pose, he has so much aura here— (canon-wise, he’s just a silly lil guy LOL) - Robinthorn (Warriors OC) drawn by AtlasOrSomething !!! Robinthorn is definitely one of my warriors OCs whose design I am most proud of, and I love when people draw her!!! The lighting and background are soo pretty!! Not to mention the clean line work and expression! (I use so many exclamation points, it- might be obnoxious) - My lovely little bean, her name is Smooshy >:) she’s actually kind of evil and a brat though. But she’s like a toddler— problematic, not too bright, BUT LOOK AT THAT FACE!! You gotta love her - Distinguished pose - Look at this creature
Music: Owl City - On the Wing Carly Rae Jepson - Call Me Maybe (Nightcore) [Nightcore version posted by Pia Schmitz] Twenty One Pilots - Doubt [Demo version] Alina - When You Leave (Numa Numa) (Nightcore) [Nightcore version posted by Maikel6311's Nightcore] [Song is based on "Dragostea Din Tei" by O-Zone] Owl City - Rainbow Veins (yes I know the amount of songs is excessive for so little art lolol, these are basically just little monthly playlists 4 myself) I keep thinking back to the past and how things ‘might have been better’. Like wasn’t the internet more ‘fun’? Wasn’t society less individualistic ? Weren't things more positive and hopeful, more colorful?? On some level, is it just the rose-tinted glasses I don’t want to take off? I keep thinking about if I could talk to old friends... as if I still even really know them. Sometimes it feels like everyone else I knew has moved on in the world without me, and I get stuck grinding my gears and cycling through, going nowhere. Life can sometimes feel, pointless? Like it's not bad, but it's not as good as I thought it would be. I dunno, maybe I'm expecting too much. I've already accepted dreams of fame and fortune were silly, I know I won't get into the big Art school I used to dream of, etc etc. I just want to be functional and happy and feel like I got to a place that feels satisfying. I just hope the people who used to know me don't watch me with pity, haha. I really hope I can build an online community again that’s active. I want to make a space that feels welcoming, somewhat carefree—where people share art and make silly (and/or heart wrenching) stories, judgement free. I want to make other people feel better and more supported, and trade silly OC art with people, and share all the things that I’ve caringly made. I feel like I could still have a purpose. (WOAH, sorry for getting dramatic there) It’s okay for things to change. It’s okay for things to become better.
