[ You know what.. f i n e. ] - Ghost SRP

Instructions

[ I've already collapsed. ] The wanderer sat alone. Staring into a pond at her reflection. Eyes red and stained with tears. [ So I'll just drown my sorrows in a non-existent world. ] The words of her brother and father rang in her head. Over.. And over.. And over again. [ I don't know what is worse. ] She dug her claws into the rock. Gritting her teeth. As more tears fell. She couldn’t take it anymore [ The utter waste of time or the eroding of my mind. ] Why did she do it? Why didn’t she just deal with the pain? Why didn’t she just say goodbye first? [ Alive means to be dead. ] Her reasons were pathetic. She felt like a coward. A failure A mess.. [ A bullet to the head. ] She stared at herself. A broken sob came out. That soon gave way to a helpless cry. She wiped her eyes and hung her head. [ The guilt faded away. ] Turning her head away from herself. Her eyes landed in the distance. Towards UrchinClan. And then something snapped in her. [ The anger has subsided, yet its shadow still remains. ] Her sob turned into a laugh. And she slowly stood up. “ You know what..” She said, a crooked smile formed. “ Fine… FINE!” She shouted, that slowly became a chuckle [ I always gave to much. ] her tears drying in her eyes. She looked away. The guilt slowly slipped off her shoulders. Into her shadow as she walked away. “ Hate me all you want. “ [ It was never enough. ] She sunk her claws into the ground. The sadness in her eyes was replaced with disgust. Her chest filled with hatred. “ But I… have had. Enough. “ [ Get dressed in black and mourn again. ] As she walked. The echoes of what they all said to her faded. She was done being walked over. She was going to bite back. [ Fake funerals for all my friends. ] She paused. Did she even do anything wrong in the first place? Sure she should’ve told someone first. But that wouldn’t have changed her departure. [ Cause I can't let it go. ] So why was everyone mad? She would've left either way. She scoffed. Maybe they were the pathetic ones. [ No, I won't let it go. ] She tapped her paw as she thought. She shrugged as she turned away. Now believing she did nothing wrong. [ It's killing me again. ] She turned her sorrow into anger. Her guilt into disgust. Her reasonings, into nothing. [ I replay it in my head when I'm alone. ] She was tired of everyone yelling at her. And her getting trampled by it. Why had she ever let their words hurt her? [ Its not me, its you. ] She didn't care anymore. [ The one who never got a clue. ] If they wanted to hate her. [ Drown in your guilt. ] Then she'd just bite back. [ If karma doesn't hit you, then I will. ] SONG + LYRICS ARE "ANIMOSITY" BY THE WARNING