implied death trigger warning, including death in general <3 " I bet on losing dogs " " I know they're losing and I pay for my place " " by the ring. " Rubyshine gripped the borage's stem with her teeth, folding them into the leaf wrap she carried. She muttered to herself. Another day. Another dull day. Ever since she had left Butterflypelt, for the better of them both, she had dedicated herself to her work. after all, what else was she supposed to do? with no apprentices, she lived the life she vowed to live. just alone. a lonely life of caring for the weak and ill as rubyshine began to pad smoothly over the rough, stinky black surface, she was too lost in her thoughts to notice the darkening sky, the blaring lights a sharp, unbearable pain struck her was this the end? her sons, her daughters. ladybug. hope. sapphire. forest. lilystar mother…? mother, where are you? help me please. you're all I have now. I fear my children have no love in their hearts for me. mother. remember when I was a kit and lilystar asked me what I wanted to be when I grew up? and I told her, "I want to be a medicine cat." I understand the faraway look in her eyes now it was because of tigerwing, wasn't it? mother I never understood the pain of losing the love of your life when you told me of my father and the brother born in your first litter who I outlived I understand the pains of lost love now when tigerwing had been attacked by a fox, and lilystar grieved for her lost mate and when father was killed, and you weeped for him i left her i left her, mother i loved her i love her now I am the one she weeps for
