ughhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh i hate this my sibling's annoying my parents are annoying everyone thinks im mad at them no one will just leave me alone and i dont know what to do idk how to talk to ppl anymore its always awkward in the group chat or even just talking to people and uugghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh im going away from home today or is it really home idk but i dont get to be home the whole weekend and im gonna get eaten by stuff in the lake and im excited but not at the same time and ppl hate me and i dunno why and people just wont talk to me unless they want something and its annoying and people are always pushing me and i hate it and i cant do this anymore and no one cares irl until it does smth for them and thats stupid and they just cant it sucks like if youre gonna be like that then leave me alone? and i cant sleep and i see stuff when i close my eyes and it scares me and i dont know what to do and this sucks and i wont be able to sleep and im gonna have to look like im fine but im not but they think i am but im not and im getting put in therapy or smt and everyone just wants somthing from me like i wanna change my last name and everyone keeps like not directly saying no dont do that but like implying it and im just like you dont care anyways why do you care now its not your fricking last name and just let me live? why am i still doing this ughhh
