I FOUND MY OLD DIARY (that I used for like three days. It's like five years old) AND IT'S KINDA FUNNY TO ME FOR SOME REASON (probably bc some part of me is embarrassed abt it) SO NOW YOU GET TO READ IT BC WHY NOT. Here's what it says haha, misspellings and all TW for religious themes, guilt, scrupulosity; anxiety, conforming/approval-seeking behavior "- DISCLAIMER - This is the diary of [full name]. It contains my private thoughts, feelings, and life. Continuing to read this means you are disobeident and rude person who can't spell. You will forever have the guilt on your soul (Unless you go to Confession). Get Out. (Not keep out because I know you turned the page.) [WOWWWWW LITTLE ME IS SO RUDE] 3/22/21 Dear God, (Because a book can't listen) Earlier today during Religion class we were doing a Kahoot. I put my name as [WHY ON EARTH DID I WRITE THAT] because sometimes my classmates laugh at certain names. My teacher kicked me out for that. He didn't know that it was me, though. I feel guilty for ever typing that name. P.S. I need to get better at writing. 3/23/21 Dear God, I had an ok day today. In a warriors game, there was a cat named [removed to avoid personal identifiers]. It made me upset because it reminded me of [scratch user]. It was cloudy today & everything just felt like... tiredness. 3/25/21 Dear God, I decided to take a short break from Scratch. I'm on it all the time and I want to explore other things in life. I also realized that [scratch user] doesn't hate me! Once she asked if anyone cared, and I was the only one that responded. She replied with hearts. Why would she do that if she hated me? Since I didn't finish my homework yesterday, I had to finish it today. I almost missed AHG, but I finished & got to go. We did two experiments, one about sand erosin & one on volcano eruptions. For the first one we got sand & water & used a water bottle to make waves. The water gradually washed the sand into it. For the second one we got a bottle of soda and dumped candy in it. I got to do one and everyone acted like it was a [explosive]. XD It bubbled up and spilled down to the ground." WOW it feels weird to read little me's diary. I never really enjoyed writing a diary, so I don't do it. The few attempts I did petered out after a few days as you can see. Tbh I probably should keep a diary, if only because my memory is extremely poor. Also LOL my anxiety and scrupulosity is on full display here-- This was written before I got medicated for anxiety.
Writing - Little me and big me