side 1. this acc was originally meant for me to make games and post art, then it became just art, then it was a place to talk about life. but I can't do this anymore. I can't trust what I feel. words said almost 2 years ago now resonate in my head like bouncy balls, knocking every feeling, true or false into my mind. I won't say who wrote them, for I don't even know if hating that project even caused me to spin. flip to side 2
side 2. I've lost all thoughts of art, it used to be my vent, but I don't know what's a real feeling anymore. I've changed to being ace flux because I don't think i can handle ANY relationships without feeling like they hate me. or if I'm too much. if I'm lying, or not. friend or a mate. it all is just so broken. I'll answer questions in the comments. but at this point. know body cares. Ive pushed them all away. I just wanted to be like the rest by being different. but I have no notable things. maybe I'm nothing, maybe I'm all. in the end. Ive pushed it all away, even if they don't realize it. I craved feeling, to the point where I don't know if people even like me.
