I've been thinking about a lot of life lately, and about moving forward on Scratch since Tansy's ban. Tansy was the first person I ever made a map part for. I remember being 13 and being so excited to get into such a popular creator's MAP. I snagged the very last part of Skeleton Song, and I put my all into it. Looking back, the part sucked lol. I told Tansy I was gonna redo it and she was like "NO I LOVED THAT PART". She said she thought it was like Disney at the time xD Tansy's a really good online friend. She's funny and supportive and cares so deeply about all of her friends; more than she lets on. She's forgiving and honest and looks out for me when others bully me behind my back. She's genuinely one of the sweetest people I know. Then, as we all know, she was banned from this platform. We know each other offsite, but honestly, now that she's gone, I've been thinking about my place here. Most online friends of mine have left, and honestly, I feel pulled away too now. I love this platform and I love how supportive people are of my work, but honestly? The best part of it wasn't recieving dozens of notifications, or watching people freak out about EWCE, or even Ex Wives being a total success. It was waking up to comments from friends, and getting support from them. It was the studios we'd start together, and the fake cults we'd start, and the late nights we'd spend talking. I remember one night talking with my first Scratch friend, Tsunami, through a hurricane at midnight. Luna showed up and we just yapped and yapped. We'd make each other fanart and nerd out and make comics, and we'd support each other's goals. Some of my most sentimental MAP parts were made for their MAPs. I loved watching Tsunami get to know Jesus for the first time, and I pray often that she still looks to him for help, same for Luna. I miss them both so much. Things change, people change, people grow, and as much as I wish I could go back to the times I spent with them, all I can do is pray for them now. Scratch isn't much fun without friends. Over fame, over likes, over comments, over follows, I love all of my friends, like Tansy and Cedar and Tsunami and Luna and Vel and Lark and Bingo and Rainii and so so many others offsite. These are my last weeks on this platform. I have a new calling and a new dream, and I'm gonna chase it with all the love I can. I love you all. God bless each and every one of you <3 - Anni
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