just a disclaimer, you don't have to read this if you don't want to or aren't comfortable with (somewhat) personal topics. ___ Hey everyone, sorry if I haven't been on lately, 1) cuz it's summer, lol. 2) i've been trying to cool off and just not get stressed with work and stuff (LIKE SCHOOL DID, GRR). But i know, that isn't a reason for me to delay SO many things that i have to do, and i'm really sorry. When i do post something, i promise it'll be multiple projects, not just one like this. Just trying to inform you everyone. Moving on, some events that will happen in the future is: i won't be really available in August, 1) i might go to a sleep away camp for a week. 2) training. 3) school starts somewhat in August. Just fyi to everyone <3 Now, i WILL be moving to a bit more *personal(?) topics, so you can skip this section completely and just read the top! It is completely your choice and i won't force anything <3 Alrighty everyone, hi hi. If you have been looking at my profile (for whatever reason), you may notice some notes i put from time to time. And if you have, you may noticed some that aren't really.. "happy", but more of some things that are currently happening to me irl. Some just being: feeling more lonely, being called a liar, etc. This might sound like a vent, but i just really need to say something. Lately, like i said before, I'm trying to cool off and not really do anything, but this causes some things back at home. There has been more yelling and negativity. I've been trying to lighten up the mood but it feels like it's just not enough or too much. Sometimes i wish i had a sibling i can talk to or share what's currently happening, but i can't. I try to talk to my friends about it all, but it's either the same advice over and over, or they bring themselves into it and just compare my problems with theirs and say that theirs is just much worse (honestly who does that bro..). As well, i've been ignoring my friends, ghosting, even blocking them (but i obviously unblock and reply to them). But all i want to say, i feel tired of trying (not trying to get it to that topic). It honestly feels too much and i just wish my parents would see and stop forcing me into so much. Another thing i want to add, but it's a bit more personal, is that i lost a couple pounds lately. And it may seem like a good thing, but it's really not, and i'm scared i might get sent to the hospital again. I won't get into that topic more since it is a bit more personal and i don't want to share much (but my close friends know about my situation). And not to confuse anyone, i don't have any eating disorder, it's just a problem i sadly have. I have much more things happening, but i won't share them except for my friends that i have irl. Sorry if this seemed like a lot, or just some stupid things that i shared about, but thanks for reading in general. Love you guys! -zayn ___ art: me song: mood lofi
