As it says I will vent here in the instructions and notes but I may delete the project later I just need a place to let everything out So basically I was recently diagnosed with depr3ssion and serve anxiety and my whole family is treating me like if they even make me sad smth bad will happen I dislike it I feel like I cant even show my emotions anymore and they wonder why I stay distant and away I wish I never got diagnosed bc it ruined everything for me my family acts as if im a time ticking b0mb abt to go off it just makes my anxiety worse I try to open up but I struggle to talk to people and usually just have a anxiety attack then I try to talk but it's too late I dislike dealing with all that I want to feel normal none of my friends understand how I feel then I come online and I wont name people but ive been told stuff abt my gender or pronouns or just stuff that really hurts I understand if u don't support but u don't know what that person is going through I feel like I have no where to go to online is horrible irl isn't bad but I struggle speaking I come online look in my messages seeing some asking abt my gender I say im not sure bc I dont know and they tell me to just use what I was born as saying stuff ant god made me who I am I tell them im not religious then bam a bunch of bad messages being sent to me so yeah im thinking of quiting but at the same time I dont want to but I might who knows bc for example during someone's drama I defended them bjt immediately felt bad for the other person bc I didn't know their side of the story it stressed me out that I almost thought of quiting right there and then bc any type of small fight can hurt my mental health i didnt have to join it but I've dealt with it before so I joined the argument and it affected me so I decided not tl really join stuff like that but now I come on and dont even wanna see what comments I get it. More venting diff topic So basically I have trouble making friends and I have a bad stutter and I often struggle to even speak a sentence without stuttering and everytime i say I'm not hungry my mom's like if u keep doing this we will have to sent u a mental hospital like bro im sorry I sometimes don't feel hungry but I do eat I dont starve myself but I take my time eating small portions at a time because if I get a normal sized plate ill rush eat and throw it all up but they see eating to little as me starving eating to much me binge eating so do I just no do anything. And well I enjoy being on scratch but its affecting my mental health to much so I might quit so uh yeah today I had a appointment with my therapist and appearbtly loud noises and they keep asking if i plan to do self h3rm and stuff like bro no I said no stop asking ive told u I haven't done that in years I keep having breakdowns in public
As it says I will vent here in the instructions and notes but I may delete the project later
