caps and oh uh tw for some mentions of pregnancy // was listening to enough (Gigi Murin - added this music in the project so tap flag) and had an idea for a character it’s about self-acceptance and discovering yourself if I have to assign it a theme, im sure Gigi yapped about it like she said she would I made a playlist to gather my thoughts and added other songs like ROMA’s SINAB (abbreviated, suffer) and IDOL by YOASOBI and MUSE by IRyS for ideas anyway I want a character who was supposed to be someone else her parents wanted amab so when she was afab she was a disappointment and they did the bare minimum for her, leaving her to her own devices and adopting a son due to her mother being diagnosed with preeclampsia (mine had this while carrying me and my twin- I’m doing research on this soon) she won’t understand really how love or care works since she won’t receive a lot of it apart from her brother (planning on having some of his pov too) and her friends, and anyone that confesses to her she won’t give a chance (“Huh? Oh, no. Sorry. Why? It doesn’t matter to you.”) she’ll be closed off to most people, trusts rarely and thinly—secrets? She’s keeping all of hers, no emotion—and demisexual so she’ll have a crush and be really confused about the emotion in general and she’ll have to learn how to trust someone past surface layer, and she’ll likely be a little obsessive and desperate when they return her attention she uses time away from her family to decide she wants to become an idol / VA (haven’t decided yet) knowing they won’t help her she’ll practice choreography or voice acting or whatever on her own her brother will support her quietly when he understands the situation, and he’ll cover for her because he’s not an awful person anyway eventually she’ll confess to her crush and they will support her as well and do their best to help her out she won’t know what to do and will likely be clingy and paranoid and afraid of losing the “one person to ever love her” as she’ll see it (really the only person she’s really cared a lot about) and her partner will likely get irritated and spend less time with her she’ll eventually land an idol job (?) and start separating herself into two people: one that is your performer, the one that has to be “perfect” and the other is the husk of a person left behind, where she stores her negative emotions and takes out her negative energy she’ll start relying on dopamine and anything with a little energizing kick to keep her happy when she’s not performing have more ideas but im not rambling more ok? enjoy there was like another OC idea I had dunno where that went
