Im tired Im tired of this of this stupid disorder this upside down world that it feels like why couldn't I be normal why couldn't I be without ADHD no one understands there was this boy I liked but I couldn't ask him I'm so gay I cant think straight my dad says that it's sientificly proven and i must do it because they say so But I'm not a F#@ing science experiment my mom says she understands because she has Adhd as well But she doesn't Her solution is send be to another therapist. I dont need therapy I need people who understand That's why I have never taken a hitus ive tried to be on as much as possible I cant live without talking to someone who understands talking to all of you who are reading this and letting me rant This ADHD this stupid dumb ADHD is a curse that holds me down Do any of you remember Kioto well then again probably only 1 or 2 people know about him he wasnt some random OC I created for magic school he was me a diffrent name a different look but still me everything he felt was what I felt. all the downsides all the upsides that was just me I escape this shadow over me by talking to you rping and drawing something my dad and mom don't understand. the other day my dad said "you do know If you have motivation this won't happen" But just because you don't think animation can be a real career doesn't mean I don't have motivation. I wish I could show him my art but he would just disaprove of me talking to all of you remove me from my account and call it a day my mom well she has these extreme mood swings one minute she shes screaming and yelling stopping from seeing my irl friends then a few minutes later she says "I know what its like but try to do better" I try as hard as I can but I cant do it this adhd this curse that was given upon me and I cant do any thing I just sit there hering them scream at me to do better while I wear the mask of "everything's fine" but its not I am not ok I feel like this is the hardest thing I would be able to talk to them about telling them that I'm not straigth hard but not as hard or telling them I'm a furry those they might understand this.. this... they will not they will not accept thanks for letting me ramble on I really aprecciate it. well that's all for now I'm back i made this a while ago near the beggining of this account and forgot to post it so here is an update on my current situation my family hates me ... ... well my mom and dad do my brother and me are still strong and I'm happy about that I feel like I'm a jerk to my friends I try to help but I fail and nothing feels right and well ... I hate myself for that I hate myself in general I'm sorry if I ignore something you said I didn't mean to Song: I'm Doing Fine by Marino
