Sandy-shroom I’m still Sandy, still a sandshrew, fingers are still weird. Marlinkit <3 You probably know this by now, but I’m applying for all of them so I don’t have to choose! Again, 6/10. I don’t always front. Nope, but I really want one! “I’m just the ghost of everyone’s perceptions of me, right? That name, Marlin… I come from a long line of ‘em, don’t I. But who am I? I’m not all that sure. Am I good, am I bad, am I just like everyone else… Who knows? Who knows…” Marlin is, to put it simply, not fully there at any given moment. Sure, they’re physically there, but mentally, emotionally? They’re off on a different planet. Marlin’s true personality (if they even have one) is hidden under layers of being exactly what cats expect of them. Their opinions on any given thing are subject to change depending on who they’re talking to. Not in a manipulative way, either, they just feel more comfortable mimicking others than ever having an original thought of their own. They are extremely nervous about everything, worrying if cats like them, if they’re good enough. “Some people would love to have my name. For me? It’s not a blessing, not good luck. It’s a curse. A curse that I will never live down.” Marlin /hates/ their name. It creates all these things that they should be, all these expectations that they can’t ever live up to. Things that cats see as them are totally wrong. They have to be just like their dad, like their family that bears the same name. Marlin. It’s not original, not a first name. It’s a title. A title that weighs heavily on Marlin. “Things I can’t say: I’m not enough I’m not like my dad As soon as I’m strong enough, I’m out of here.” Marlin has no great love for UrchinClan. It’s their clan, where they were born, (cassiopia) sure, but they feel more drawn to a loner’s life. It’s simple, it’s easy, it’s away from everyone who thinks ‘Marlin’ means ‘UrchinClan’. And it’s away from their family. “If I hate my name so much, why don’t I change it? Because I don’t deserve to change it. See, I’m really perfect for this name.” Marlin is filled to the brim with self-loathing. Maybe it’s because, no matter how much they try, they won’t ever be enough in everyone’s eyes. Marlinstar was a leader. And Marlin knows, deep down, that that’s what everyone expects from them. And they refuse to be that. “They push me, and push me, and push me. How do I tell them that I’m already past my breaking point?” Marlin doesn’t know how to say no. They hate contradicting people, hate advocating for themself. They will keep on going and giving until they break. Perfect until they are so, so, soul-crushingly, /not/. “To some people, I’m an image of what they should be. To others, I’m everything they’re not. But then again, those things are almost the same.” Marlin will use mirror pronouns, not having a specific gender label. Marlin will be demisexual and grayromantic. Talon cusps are talon-like protrusions or ‘cusps’ on the backside of the teeth, facing the tongue. Small talon cusps don’t have any great effect on your daily life and you are still able to chew and speak without difficulty. Large talon cusps, however, can cause problems such as gum irritation, frequent cavities, mouth injures, and even sometimes causing problems eating and speaking. Marlin will fall somewhere in between, their talon cusps causing them pain and slight problems eating. They will likely stick their tongue out becuase if they keep it in their mouth, it will be irritated and hurt. They won’t have problems speaking, but will be in pain most of their life due to their talon cusps. Sources: https://ridgeviewdental.com/blog/what-are-talon-cusps https://pmc.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/articles/PMC4282910/ https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Talon_cusp Still hidden! Marlin will despise their father. A picture of everything they’re not, and will never be. They are ok with their mother, but dislike the fact that she seems to favor him. Depending on how their siblings act around them, they will either like or dislike them. Overall, they will feel fairly neutral around them. -As a kit, Marlin will just feel uncomfortable with the heavy expectations set before them, but won’t hate their name fully- yet. -They will probably leave UrchinClan when they are older, most likely to become a loner -Or they might follow their mother’s footsteps and become a medic, disliking fighting and hunting.
TN art by @Houndflight_ToPH Music is Just One Yesterday by Fall out Boy
