venting again (kinda) because I have no one else to talk to right now.. I HATE being stared at as some of you may already know not because I don't know them because I'm scared of being an embarrassment to the people with me. I'm like 11 but I matured (physically) really fast... (I look almost 14 to 16) I think you already know what thats leading to.. I once went to get ice cream with my mom at this shop and one of the employees prob around 15-17 uhh thought I was (I don't think I can say it here) and I didn't even notice.. my mom told me in the car and laugh about it a little like what?? girl someone whos prob gonna be an adult soon was simping for you child whos not even a preteen... (I was 9 or 10 at the time..) I'm not allowed to wear tank tops no matter how hot it is outside because of my body yet my mom thinks it kinda funny when someone "broke his ankles" for me... I have a fear of being sa because of my mom and I hate going outside unless its outback and I really REALLY can't make friends even if I did I'm never gonna see them again anyway.. man if I had actual people who didn't judge me to be my friend I WOULD LOVE to talk and hang out as much as I could.. I hate the fact my mom or dad don't take me out enough and stuff to actually have friends and I get it my mom has a job and my dad prefers staying home but I at least want to meet people.. I'm scared of even going out front of our house sometimes.. I hate this.. my mom is stressed and my dad is busy i get shes stressed and stuff but she take it out on me and never apologizes but I'M expected to take it all in and forgive her because she does what she can like I'm not spoiled or anything but SHE YELLED AT ME FOR NOT LIKING A MOVIE WITH A 1 STAR RATING THAT WASN'T EVN GOOD AND WAS A DISNEY KNOCK OFF?? anyway thats all bye cookies have a good day/night
