It's a WIP i'm sorry i'm just too sad to finish it :( Before anyone asks, i'm not bi or les(bian). This is just a friend that I genuinely miss hanging around with a lot. This is a slight vent I can't keep it in any longer i'm sorry. ------------------------------------------------------------------------- I miss you. I miss you so much. Where did you go? You were here, you were okay, but then... I should've never said that. It was my fault. I'm so sorry. I know that you forgive me, but why did you forgive me so easily? Why...did I do that? Because of me, you had to go through all of that. So why did you forgive me? Aren't you supposed to resent me because of that? I know it's been so long since that happened, but this guilt still resides in me. It's been close to a year, I wanna say sorry so badly, but you're not around anymore. I'm trying to heal, I REALLY am trying, but whenever that thought comes up, it swallows me whole again. Whenever i'm sitting at lunch without you, it just feels so...wrong. It makes me lose my appetite. I sit with another, they're great and all, but nothing could ever make me smile when i'm at lunch besides you. I know you're struggling really hard, and it feels like I was the one that was responsible for it. Whenever you're ready to come back, i'll be waiting. I'll be waiting so patiently with a smile on my face. We'll be able to laugh together again, make up all the time that we missed. And that time is a lot. 3 months is a lot. It may be more, but I had lost track by now. But yet it's all over in late may - early june. I'm an advanced student, it's so hard to keep up but you're taking the normal curriculum and yet you're also struggling a bit. I miss you, _ . I really do. We all miss you. Take your time, though. We'll be waiting. Even if you don't come back until high school, we'll still be waiting, I suppose. :). Ok nvm they're back eeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee
