I guess I've been thinking a bit I don't have any goals, aspirations, or solid beliefs, and even if I did, the future really doesn't seem bright. I'm getting older, but I really haven't changed or grown in years. I've slowly lost most of my already few friends, and I can't make new ones. My anxiety has gotten so bad that going back to public school really isn't an option, but I don't think I've actually learned anything in years from homeschooling. I cling onto my old toys and surround myself with bright colors. I never really got a chance to find out how I like to dress or present myself. I don't think I can grow or learn at this point. I'm not really living for the sake of anything, and I'm really not hopeful. I've been thinking about it, and I think it's too late for me a shame i'm not brave enough to act on it, I guess
