so this is the most personal im gonna get on scratch, ok? and idk what to say to my irl friends. bc you know who im talking about. but idk if u actually know my experiences with her. so, im sorry my irl friends. you can keep reading or you can stop. and the reason im posting this (i think i am, i might take this down) is bc i havent rlly told the full story yet, to anyone, and it's easier to open up to someone on the internet who has never seen my face. okay. let's get into it. i'm going to preface this with: Even though I know very well that I am not in the wrong in this situation, that does not make me a good person. I have done bad things and said mean things. And I'm trying to get better. but even tho im not a good person, this doesnt make my story anymore tolerable. so i know a girl. her name, let's say, is J. I am bi and afab, for future reference. anyways, i met her last year. she was new student. and she was very loud, ignored personal spaces, and boundaries. but that wasnt anything i couldn't deal with. besides, i was having the time of my life. she was a good friend. and then one day she confessed she loved me. well. okay. i had a bit of a crush on her too, and i decided, why not date her? i'm young, excitable, and it'd be fun. besides, we're young. not even in high school yet. so i said, yes, we could date. yes, i was her girlfriend. yes, that's alright. and the very next day she kissed me on the lips. in front of a crowd of people. without me saying "okay! let's kiss!" she didnt ask. and maybe she thought it was romantic. it wasnt. it was very uncomfortable. listen. I am very private person. If you know me irl, you're probably thinking "uh NO they are NOT" but i really am. or i at least like to keep my romantic relationships private. I really do. for me, romantic relashonships don't need to be shouted about, and i could just share my romance with, yknow, my PARTNER. but then J decided to tell everyone, absolutely everyone, even to people i didn't want to come out to yet. this made me a bigger target, sorta-- more homophobic boys made me uncomfortable in band, more people looked uncomfortable around ME. and that was all because J decided personal boundaries didn't exist. so i told J, "please stop. I'm a private person. i dont want everyone to know what's happening with us." and J said, "Okay :)" and THEN SHE PROCEDED TO TELL EVERYONE THAT SHE HAD KISSED ME. ON THE LIPS. if that wasnt enough (destroying my personal boundaries, outing me to people without my consent, KISSING me without my consent), she called me her "wife" and said "we're totally going to be married someday" and then made fake ai photos of our "children" and she named them and made "stories" about us getting married. this. was my second. romantic partner. we. were in. school. i didn't want to marry her! i was just dating in middle school. dating my crushes, seeing what dating was actually like. usually partners in middle school don't last till you're thirty! but i went along. and why did I go along? because she was... One day, she texted to my gc...well...a cry for heIp, mostly. she was fine...afterwards...but its a understatement to say that she gave us quite a shock. so i knew that if i broke up with her, something bad would happen. so. to recap. J currently: outed me without my consent kissed me without my consent ignored + destroyed my personal boundries made fictional stories outlining us getting married, even though we were very young made FAKE CHILDREN for us (didn't even ask if I wanted children???) and yet, I was still with her. plus, i know that she cheats on her assignments. i know that her "stories" she makes are actually "made" by AI. I know that the only reason her grades are rising are because her new school isn't checking to see if their students r using AI. and honestly. that isn't even covering how she makes my FRIENDS uncomfortable! and her good-bye letter? the one everyone was crying about how sincere it was? her good-bye letter to a new school? AI WROTE THAT. so i dropped subtle hints and clues that i dont want to be with her in fact, it's gotten to the point where i NEVER TEXT HER. and STILL. SHE THINKS THAT WE'RE DATING. SHE STILL CALLS ME HER "WIFE" SHE STILL IGNORES MY PRIVACY so. here's my vent. ... bye.
