this is supposed to be a rant but its very personal. additionally if you dont want to read anything a bit deep you should click off. Normally i would never talk about anything like this but i need to now. I've been bullied and shamed and I just can't anymore. I also have doubted myself because of this. In school online or anything that I can communicate with I can't even escape. The reason I don't talk to a therapist or a counsler is because I don't want to, getting one would make things worse and it won't even help, it would ruin me more. The main problem is the people that are bullying me used to be my friends a year ago, and now they just switched up. I'm not going to specify who but they know who they are as i know one of them does scratch. They've been calling me names like "Chud" and more. I never told anyone because if i did i thought it would get worse, the exception was people that also felt this way. Telling people my inner feelings would probably overwhelme them, and they would look at me differently. What they don't know is that i've been shamed before by others I've been bullied by others yet now its the worst. Most of my real friends are in differenct classes so i don't have anyone to talk to. Additionally we have a school trip and im not going and like one of my classmates is bullying me. Just to say. yes this is me and i am sane typing this. this is how i feel and i don't mean to upset anyone. and no im not gonna become emo or smth im still the same i want to put this out atleast. and if you are wondering why on scratch well its because this is the website i have the most people to talk to and people that can help. i know like 5-10 people i can trust.
i have nothing to say... this explains most of it... i gotta release this someday... btw my parents don't even know about this.... the lil like sprite animaton thing is just for aestetic leave before i do smth bad to myself
