it's officially 2026. I feel like i've just been posting an endless slog of art and nothing about myself. so i'm taking the time for emotional re-evaluation. How am I doing in school? Good. In fact, amazing. Better than I've ever been. How am I doing with family? Meh. My parents took away my iPad, so I can't really draw anymore. (if I owe you any art for whatever reason I really apologize.) I don't really know when I get it back. But they seemed fine this morning, so maybe if I just wait a little bit, they'll become calmer and more lenient. I recently just figured out i'm aromantic, and dropping hints to my mom is really hard cause she doesn't really know anything about that kind of stuff. my parents have kinda been busy these past few days and it seems like just anything will set them off and they'll get mad more easily. How am I doing with friends? honestly, I don't really know. I hang out with two different friend groups that both...don't like each other. I love them both. I really do. i don't know what to do anymore. How am I doing emotionally? idk, man. some days i'm super happy like nothing could ever go wrong and the next minute i'm depressed. (I am aware that this is a mental disorder called bipolar disorder, I lwk might have it). being like this at my age is so genuinely confusing. On the other hand, my school is on break. I might have a lot of free time or none at all. i like to cry. maybe it's cuz it's a natural human reflex. I dunno but I think I do more than others. I don't know if there's something wrong with me. How am I doing physically? to be completely honest, I haven't touched grass in so long and actually went outside to enjoy myself. yes, I do sports and at least try to keep myself in good condition, but I don't think it's enough. How am I doing on Scratch? not the best, to be honest. I haven't really been keeping up with my friends and CAS has been on pause for a monthish. plus I haven't posted anything in a while. I have a bunch of unshared projects I haven't touched in such a long time. i'm focusing my efforts more on YouTube instead. Am I leaving? I have absolutely no idea. the AI thing seems to have cooled down, but I felt so free during the hiatus. maybe scratch is causing this stress and angst. I don't get as much messages as I did before, everything in my to-do has been put to a stop, and I just don't know what to do anymore. maybe it just hasn't been working out for me. but again, I love everyone here, regardless of race, age, religion, and gender. I love this community so much, even though fights break out every other week, I swear. I love all these wonderful people who press the purple button on the top right of my profile. I love the person who took the time to read this, you. Will I take a hiatus, then? Most likely, just from posting. i'll make comments and favorite other people's stuff still. thanks. -3sp
