i dont know how to describe this feeling. this feeling of..utter rage and fury, wanting to take a stand and act upon it...but also sadness...and fear. were they really my friends? are my current friends really my freinds? was i imagining this all and im the problem? maybe i dont have an anxiety disorder maybe im just stressful to other people. Did he really do me wrong by saying that? why does he keep doing this? why do they beleive him? why do they choose him over me but then say im not the problem? they say im not the problem but they cant be friends with me anymore, but then continue to be friends with him. What did i do? this isnt even my full second year at this school. why...WHY...just...just why...WHY would you do this to me?! what did i ever do to you except be kind and love you?! and then the second i cant handle a relationship ontop of my parental stress you SPREAD RUMORS ABOUT ME AND RECORD MY CONVERSATIONS WITH MY FRIENDS WHILE YOU HIDE YOUR PHONE WHERE I CANT SEE IT!! THEN YOU BLAME ME, AND TAKE ADVANTAGE OF ME WHEN I DONT REPORT YOU IMMEDIATLEY!! THE SCHOOL DOESNT EVEN DO ANYTHING ABOUT YOU!! YOU JUST CONTINUE TO HURT ME!! OVER AND OVER AND OVER AGAIN SPILLING MY BLOOD ACROSS YOUR FILTHY LIES!! YOUR FILTHY LIES THAT INFECT MY OPEN WOUNDS AND ACT AS ROPES TO STRANGLE ME SO I CANT BREATH!! GASLIGHTING ME AND MY FRIENDS SO MY FRIENDS LEAVE ME!! EVEN WHEN I HAVE CONCRETE EVIDENCE YOU FEED THEM LIES UNTILL THEY ARE SO FULL OF THEM THAT THEY BEGIN TO QUESTION THEIR REALITY AND SAY IM WRONG AND THAT MY EVIDENCE IS FAKE!! SAYING IM OVER REACTING!!SHIFTING THE BLAME ON ME AND TAKING MY DM'S OUT OF CONTEXT TO SHOW ALL MY FRIENDS AND TELL THEM IM THE PROBLEM!! NOT SHOWING THEM WHAT HURTFUL THINGS YOU SAID TO ME TO MAKE ME SAY THAT!! YOU ISOLATE ME FROM MY FRIENDS AND TAKE THEM AWAY!! this is to my gaslighting, emotionally @bvs!v3, bs, dreadful, horrifying, harrowing, horrendous, defamation, waster of air ex who has wronged me in too many ways.
