I’m so done. Anything I ask my parents about that is school related, they always find a way to make it negative. I literally asked my dad about it being an A or B day tomorrow and he started talking about my missing homework. And he threatened to take away my school iPad. I NEED THAT FOR HOMEWORK BY THE WAY. The second I TRY to be positive, negativity from my parents comes flooding in. I don’t wanna be in this life. I wish I was never born. My arm is covered in “paper cutting” scars and they aren’t going away. I’m surprised my parents haven’t noticed them yet. I’ve been thinking of many ways to “do it”. I highly doubt my parents care even the slightest about my mental health. Everything about me is horrible. I’m too annoying for anyone. I hate my body shape. I’m too sensitive. I’m too clingy. I’m not sad enough to be “mentally ill”, but too sad to be “normal. I feel pathetic by just even venting. Almost all my irl friends treat me like a place holder, or a puppet on strings. I would talk to them about it, but that would just make me selfish. I’m too immature. I can’t ask for help. I can’t speak up. I’m an idiot. “I’m destined to be alone” according to my mom. Can someone get me the rope and stool please? It’s definitely for a swing trust.
Another day, another selfish Sparky on the screen..! Idrc if I get banned for this. I might respond dryly.
