I was just digging around my old projects when I found the original death project I had made for Lagoon (that I had mentioned). Uhmm so I guess I'll share what I had written. It was never completed, and I'm not sure if I'm up to do so... so. Yeah, here it was. TW: self-loathing thoughts??? This time. Lagoon knew it was coming. Soft whispers of anger still, prosper. ... You shouldn't have lived so long. Your life was empty; hollow and nothing. Perhaps they were right. But LagoonLily found she barely cared now. beat. beat. time was running out, like sand rushing downwards in a hourglass. beat. beat. like the rhythm of a steadily dying drum, worn from age and use. LagoonLily found herself moving now, leaving her nest with a solemn sigh, her back ached. not just her back, her whole body. Most of all, her heart. Everything, misplaced and lost among splattered stars and blood red dust. This is your time- we watch, hungry, unforgiving. LagoonLily glanced downwards as she feels something. She turns, and tears nearly threaten to spill. Of course, they'd been afterthoughts for a bit- but always, they were by her side. Giggles, Cuddles, her affable hermit crabs... and then the tears do come. Hyacinth. Memories choke Lagoon into kneeling on the ground, wide-eyed. Again, we poke at a dying thing in it's final moments. LagoonLily forced herself upwards, grabbing the hermit crabs and with them, she rushed off, out of camp. Her heart's dying beats are now heard, wailing loudly, but not in protest- anger, like what fuels everything else, and regret, not regret of actions, but of inactions. And what do they matter, lost days- moons ago? She didn't know where was going- running off to in such a panic. But of course, she finds herself at the FlurryClan and UrchinClan borders. She stops, panting slightly. Yes, this... this was where she had seen some lost kits, unfortunate. But... oh no, they'd be lost again. She could tell; only about three hundred and fifteen heartbeats left for her. ... and that was all I wrote. This also has some lost context I suppose. Right so Lagoon was suppose to adopt a second litter, but that never happened did it? So that's the context.
Song: Hole Dwelling, Kikuo (Cover by LostParadice) Art by @CosmicRadius (I got permission to use it I believe)
