hey. so um. its been a really long week for me so far. today has been the worst day, personally. im tired of this. so, two friends in my friend group (call them A and T) and i were in mid lunchtime, and A goes outside. I say to T: "hey you know why he went outside? its because he likes to ask people on other classes stuff and does that instead of eating lol." (i said it in a joking manner, even though A confirmed he does that, for that reason. (they dont like to eat in public, like at all.)), so when A comes back, T tells him and didnt even think i was kidding. A got MAD at me for no reason at all, calling me names that i personally dont like, at all. and probably cant say those here. so, i just went silent, looked at T, and then looked away, just. thinking, basically. that actually hurt me, even though it usually doesnt (all my class calls me names sometimes, and so do i, but i didnt call A anything bad this time,,,). so, skip to recess, i was more calm this time, and suddenly one of my classmates tells me i have to go up and enter the classroom right next to ours because we were going to practice something that we are supposed to sing TOMORROW. so i get dragged in, and turns out: A AND T WERE FOLLOWING ME. i didnt notice, so i sang normally. recess ended, and then they told me. I dont like to be heard singing by friends or family. AT ALL. unless i was supposed to sing with them, or im presenting myself publicly, but i didnt have to with A and T. i was rather mad at that point, did the same as i did in lunchtime. next class, i suddenly get asked "Are you fine?" like nothing happened. of course i was already a bit better, so i told them i was alright. they asked again. same response, they ASKED AGAIN. i responded a bit more loudly and now i think A hates me for no valid reason. they didnt talk to me after, not even until now. im. tired of this. it always happens, A gets mad, and i leave them alone, now IM mad and they dont leave me alone! i just want to spend some time ALONE so i can calm myself down but NOOOO i have to get asked "are you alright" EVERY DARN MINUTE. sigh. its over for now, and im glad it is.
upt: A is talking to another friend im in good terms with. they arent talking about me, atleast upt2: We are in good terms now!! hooray
