Hey guys, This is just a little dump its 9:34 where I am when typing this, but I have some feelings I hold everyone together while all its doing to me is tearing me down. I hold all these expectiotons of these people, my friends, but are they true friends if they laugh at you or just people who think you're a joke? I wonder this because if I feel so depressed to the point I have had thoughts is it bad. my posture isn't straight anymore like my actions, everything is sideways. No one seems worth crying for. I know this quote by Maya Angelou, "I've learned that people will forget what you said, people will forget what you did, but people will never forget how you made them feel,” and I've realized that the more I think about it the more it makes sense. Because if you ask me what Mary did, I would probulay be able to tell you but in some cases I wouldn't be able to tell you what Evan and Grayton have said, but I know how they have made me feel and why I quit Tumbling from failing cheer. Some people will be like "oh clock it" "oh TEA" OH SHUT UP is how I feel. Im numb, but I need someone holding my hand so my heart doesn't race. Like Ariana needed Cynthia in every interview, I need my siblings (H and J) because I know they care. But do they really? Yes they do, I hope. Miss M held me and C together for awhile and she is a sis too, we both like big butts while me and H's sis has the same bday. And how A was mine and J's mother, We ate rats. And that is what matters to me: People who don't make you feel bad, the real ones. And the real ones know who they are, and they know I love them so much! they are the reason Im here! 9:47 I swear Im crying!: the lights in my room just brightened, and I made me think about god so fast because of this one time I went to church with my good friend Ad when it was about how god brings people to the light! 9:50pm
Feel free to dump, this is a safe space for all of us! You don't have to share if you don't feel comfortable! NO NAMING PLS!! (privacy matters [to most]) Send this to others so they know they are not alone! Love me, it would really help a lot of others. Also if you're down here what does ꔫ mean?
